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Title: Two Bite Truth (Bell's Theorem remix)
Author: Rachael Sabotini ([livejournal.com profile] wickedwords)
Summary: Over the years, Rodney has learned a few things about John Sheppard
Fandom: SGA
Pairing: John Sheppard/Rodney McKay
Rating: PG-13
Original Story: About a Scientist by Celli Lane ([livejournal.com profile] celli)
Notes: This was written for the 2008 Remix challenge. Thank you so much to [livejournal.com profile] sherrold and [livejournal.com profile] elynross for their beta skills. All remaining typos are my own.



The windows in their apartment depolarize just before dawn, because John likes to see the sun rise. The light's barely filtering in when Rodney feels John jerk awake next to him and hears his sudden choked breath; glancing at the clock, Rodney checks the time: 4:00 a.m. John must have had another nightmare.

Rodney doesn't remember when he first noticed that John frequently slept badly--probably camping off world that first year together. Everything was desperate then, and everyone coped as best they could. If John jerked awake in the middle of the night on some alien world, well, that happened to Rodney, too. He hadn't said anything or done anything back then, just laid stiffly in his bed, listening as John settled back to sleep, wanting to touch yet afraid to get up and try to help. And in the morning, he watched John across the campfire as he ate reconstituted cheese omelet and drank his cup of black coffee, saw the strain he was under to be pleasant and civil.

If John could pretend he didn't have nightmares, Rodney could pretend he didn't know about them. So he didn't ask if John had nightmares about whales, or if he had nightmares about the city sinking or the Wraith eating them all, or about finding the bodies of friends sprawled out in the lab when he went in the next day. He wondered, but he didn't know what kind of nightmares John had , and he certainly didn't know about the clowns.

Rodney rubs his hand in slow circles over John's back, then slides it down his arm and across his incredibly hairy chest, pulling him in close. His palms catch on the scar tissue from some of Pegasus's more interesting 'parting gifts', but that's okay. They're still here, still together. John shifts slightly, burrowing into Rodney's arms; he sighs and seems to fall into an easy sleep as Rodney holds him. Holding John often helps ; it lets him know that Rodney's alive.

After the doppelganger incident, John tried to explain his nightmare, and his voice broke with the effort of just saying the words: you died. At the time, Rodney blew it off. Sure, John worried about him, just like he worried about John. Like they both worried about what might happen, and how the universe might end. It was a natural response during that first year, when everyone was depending on them. But John...John kept it up after they got back in contact with Earth, and Rodney really wasn't used to that. He'd spent his whole life looking out for himself and his little sister, up until she made what Rodney considered to be some seriously stupid choices, and then he only looked out for himself.

His arm is starting to go numb from holding on, so he gently eases away from John, still thinking about how Atlantis had changed all that. How John had changed that. How John made him care. Rodney rolls over onto his back, folds his arms under his head, and stares up at the ceiling, John's warmth radiating along the side of his body. There were so many times Rodney had wished he didn't care, things that had happened that he wanted to forget: the first time John left him to blow up a hive ship, the time that John disappeared into the shell of a bug, the way he'd looked when Todd sucked out his life-- He can never unlearn what John looks and sounds like when he is deeply afraid, when he's begging for Rodney's life.

Shuddering, Rodney pulls himself out of bed; he's not going to get any more sleep tonight. Drawing the covers around John, Rodney throws on his bathrobe and pads out into the kitchen to make coffee, thinking about all the things he might never have known if their lives had been different. He never would have known how soft John's skin is when he shaves first thing in the morning, the way he laughs and sighs in bed when they fool around, the way he freezes when he catches sight of one of his scars in the mirror. Rodney can't stop the fond smile that creases his face as he thinks about John. After all these years, John Sheppard is still vain. Rodney would have missed knowing that.

There are some things that Rodney still wants to learn about John. He wants to know what John will look like years from now, when his hair is spiky and grey , and he wants to know if John will still be flying when he's eighty. There's a whole future out there for the two of them, things still worth finding out. He might even let John kiss him on a Ferris wheel sometime, and see if he tastes like cotton candy.

The light's better in the living room, the first blush of sunlight chasing the dull grey of nighttime into the room's corners. He pours his coffee and looks out at the water, then down at the beach. It's really not so bad, this place. It's a good home for the two of them. John runs and surfs, and they' re close enough to the grocery store that John can ride his bike down to get groceries. The amazing thing is how he's talked Rodney into doing it, as well.

It's funny how they never talked about any of the usual stuff: where to live, where to work, which brand of soap to buy. They live near the ocean because they both love it here. They work out of their house whenever possible and take the bus when they can't. They buy the soap they use because it smells like the soap that the Athosians made, and not like some kind of citrus.

There are a few things Rodney never wants to learn: if John has a problem with Rodney losing his hair, for example , or if the radiation they picked up in Pegasus is turning into cancer. Most of the time he doesn't think about those things, the things he doesn't want to know. He tries to stick with the good stuff.

"Hey, Rodney," John says from the doorway, his voice still scratchy and fogged. "I thought we were gonna sleep in?"

"Couldn't sleep," Rodney says, looking John over. John's body is tight, his muscles strong. Rodney blinks and swallows; seeing John naked still takes his breath away. Heart hammering, he looks back at the beach, where the first surfers are piling out to greet the dawn. "The place just feels weird."

"Yeah, it's weird for me, too." John steps in behind Rodney and slides his hands around Rodney's belly; he brushes his head against Rodney's ear and says, "Want to watch the sun come up with me?"

He's learned a lot about John in their time together, and he's learned that nothing makes him happier than a cup of coffee and the beach at dawn, with Rodney tucked in beside him. Rodney nods, feeling his head rub against John's neck. "Sounds good to me."

The End

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Date: 2008-04-19 10:49 pm (UTC)
celli: a woman and a man holding hands, captioned "i treasure" (McKay)
From: [personal profile] celli
Oh, remixer. How amazing are you?

I read it through and had to go right back to the top and read through it again. And both times I misted up a little at the end! It's just perfect. I love how you worked in the stuff from my story and made it all about Rodney and the things he knows and remembers and wishes he could forget. And he holds John because it helps his nightmares! And nothing makes John happier than Rodney and the beach at dawn! Their soap!

I'm misting up again. Thank you. Thank you so much.

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Date: 2008-04-28 11:51 pm (UTC)
ext_1637: (john rodney date)
From: [identity profile] wickedwords.livejournal.com
I had such a hard time picking which story to remix, and I was torn between one of your Heroes stories and this. I just had to take all of the little bits you'd given us in the original and anchor it to a setting. I'm sorry I didn't have time to do both, but I really like how this one turned out, and pleased that you liked it too. Thanks!

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Date: 2008-04-19 11:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bluflamingo.livejournal.com
This is really beautiful. Even though most of how they got their is left up to imagination, it's still a really vivd picture of their lives now. I love that they have a happy ending here, mostly.

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Date: 2008-04-29 01:43 am (UTC)
ext_1637: (john rodney geeks in love)
From: [identity profile] wickedwords.livejournal.com
I hadn't really thought about how broken John was until the story was finished, but it's clear it something really bad happened. But whatever it was, they're still together and doing okay. Thanks!

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Date: 2008-04-20 10:43 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gaffsie.livejournal.com
This was wonderful. They know each other, they love each other, and there's still plenty of things left to learn about each other.

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Date: 2008-04-29 01:43 am (UTC)
ext_1637: (john plus rodney by newkidfan)
From: [identity profile] wickedwords.livejournal.com
They are going to spend a long time in each other's company. I'm glad you liked it. Thanks!

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Date: 2008-04-20 01:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] beadattitude.livejournal.com
Oh, this is so lovely, and the last paragraph just made me tear up. I love thinking of them like this.

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Date: 2008-04-29 01:46 am (UTC)
ext_1637: (john rodney asleep art)
From: [identity profile] wickedwords.livejournal.com
I let my inner romantic out to play in this one. I'm glad you liked it. Thanks!

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Date: 2008-04-20 03:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cupidsbow.livejournal.com
I have a secret weakness for happy-together future fics. *happysigh*

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Date: 2008-04-29 01:47 am (UTC)
ext_1637: (john rodney aurora)
From: [identity profile] wickedwords.livejournal.com
Man, me too! This one is as romantic as I get. Thanks!

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Date: 2008-04-20 05:07 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kassrachel.livejournal.com
This is beautiful. I think the phrase that made my heart catch in my throat is

His arm is starting to go numb from holding on

-- such a small detail, but it resonates for me on levels beyond the physical. This story is all about Rodney holding on to John, in all the ways that he can, all the ways that matter.

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Date: 2008-04-29 01:52 am (UTC)
ext_1637: (john rodney blue heart)
From: [identity profile] wickedwords.livejournal.com
Oh, hon! You make me blush. I'm glad you enjoyed it. Thanks!

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Date: 2008-04-20 08:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amberlynne.livejournal.com
Oh that's just lovely. ♥

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Date: 2008-04-29 01:53 am (UTC)

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Date: 2008-04-20 10:46 pm (UTC)
ext_230: a tiny green frog on a very red leaf (domestica africa antartica atlantica ero)
From: [identity profile] anatsuno.livejournal.com
The beginnings of happy ever after can be so bittersweet.. This is really lovely. Thank you.

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Date: 2008-04-30 06:44 pm (UTC)
ext_1637: (john rodney geeks in love)
From: [identity profile] wickedwords.livejournal.com
Thanks! I enjoyed writing something more on the romantic side for once, and I really like the idea of the guys holding onto each other no matter what happens. I'm glad you like it!

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Date: 2008-04-21 03:21 am (UTC)
ext_2160: SGA John & Rodney (McShep kiss b&w)
From: [identity profile] winter-elf.livejournal.com
Lovely seeing them together, sharing their life, even if away from everyone.

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Date: 2008-05-01 03:49 pm (UTC)
ext_1637: (john rodney glasses by newkidfan)
From: [identity profile] wickedwords.livejournal.com
Aww. Thank you. (And Your icon makes me very happy)

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Date: 2008-04-21 08:57 pm (UTC)
paranoidangel: PA (Default)
From: [personal profile] paranoidangel
This is really lovely, and I love how you've taken things from the original that John thinks about Rodney and told us what Rodney thinks about John using those same things.

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Date: 2008-05-01 04:16 pm (UTC)
ext_1637: (john rodney hurt/comfort)
From: [identity profile] wickedwords.livejournal.com
Thanks! That was part of the fun of choosing this for the remix to me, to flip it around and see what Rodney sees in John.

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Date: 2008-04-22 01:09 am (UTC)
zulu: Hugh Laurie as House, with text: seeker after truth (house - truth seeker)
From: [personal profile] zulu
I enjoyed this very much; good to see Rodney's perspective, but also good to see the future, ways that they've grown together.

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Date: 2008-05-01 04:19 pm (UTC)
ext_1637: (john rodney if this is the end by chelle)
From: [identity profile] wickedwords.livejournal.com
Thanks! I'm a big fan of Non-apocalyptic future!fic as well as the apocalyptic kind. I occasionally like to see them just surviving and being good to each other. It makes for a nice rest from all of the angst I usually write.

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Date: 2008-05-01 04:20 pm (UTC)

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Date: 2008-04-29 02:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] terribilita.livejournal.com
What a wonderful future for these two, and a great continuation of the original. It's just lovely. :>

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Date: 2008-05-03 04:23 am (UTC)
ext_1637: (john bondage determined by icon_ascentio)
From: [identity profile] wickedwords.livejournal.com
Thanks! I read the original and was a little saddened at the idea of them not getting together, so I went for it and wrote the happy ending. I am so glad [livejournal.com profile] celli didn't mind!

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