http://j-giles-band.livejournal.com/ ([identity profile] j-giles-band.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] remixredux082008-04-12 02:59 am

Aerodynamics (The Flip to the B-side Mix) [Stargate Atlantis; John Sheppard/Rodney McKay]

Title: Aerodynamics (The Flip to the B-side Mix)
Author: [livejournal.com profile] gblvr
Summary: Most days the closest he gets to flying is the bike ride to and from....
Rating: PG
Fandom: Stargate Atlantis
Warnings: none
Spoilers: none
Title, Author and URL of original story: Aerodynamics by [livejournal.com profile] busaikko; http://busaikko.slashcity.org/?p=65#more-65
Beta thanks: Many, many thanks to my friend M., who is not even in fandom, for beta work....



If he'd known starting his own aerial tour company would mean never flying any of his own damn helicopters, John Sheppard would have said fuck it all, and worked for someone else. He hadn’t known, though, and now he spends all of his time doing paperwork and balancing books and scheduling other pilots, and most days the closest he gets to flying is the bike ride to and from the Puddlejumper, Inc. hangar at the airport.

He rides fast, leaning low over the handlebars, weaving in and out of snarled traffic, speeding up when he hits a stretch without traffic lights. The wind feels fantastic rushing past his ears, not as cold as it should be for December in Chicago, but cool enough that he isn't even breaking a sweat.

He passes several cars, pushing hard to make the next light, but when he glances up, he sees the light has already turned yellow and everyone is braking hard to avoid hitting the car in front of them. Out of the corner of his eye, he sees a flash of movement, and he turns his head to look; the woman in the car he's passing is smacking her hand against the steering wheel and cussing. Typical Chicago behavior; after three years living here, John's used to it.

When he faces forward again, the moron in the next car up has opened his door, and John swerves hard to avoid crashing head first into it -- safety glass or not, going through a car window is low in his list of fun things to do. Instead, he turns sharply to the left, doing some cussing of his own when his front tire hits the curb. He's untangling himself from the wreckage of his favorite bike when he hears his name.

"Sheppard?"

He looks up to see Rodney McKay trying, and failing, to get out of the car. He just blinks a couple of times in shock before he turns back to assess the damage to his front tire. The tire is shredded, and the wheel is bent beyond repair, but it's not until he feels the hot trickle of blood from a stinging cut running down over his knee that he really starts to lose it. He stands up, unbuckles the chinstrap of his now useless helmet and flings it to the ground. His breath is coming hard now, and he can feel sweat trickling down between his shoulder blades.

"So you're trying to kill me now?" As he watches. McKay finally fumbles the seatbelt off and half-falls out into the street. He looks...good, maybe a little less hair, a few more wrinkles and a little more padding around the middle, but he looks good. The cut of his suit is sharp and well-tailored, and if the tie isn't silk, John will eat what's left his bike tire. For once Rodney looks well-rested and John doesn't think he's ever seen him look less stressed.

So yeah, he looks better than John remembers, not that he'd admit he ever thinks about Rodney, or Teyla, or Ronon, or anyone else he left behind when the Air Force recalled him to Earth.

He'd thought it was a temporary recall; they'd all thought it was, and so they hadn't really said goodbye. He figured he'd spend a few months at the Mountain, before the SGC cut him loose, and sent him back to Atlantis. It wasn't the short stint he'd thought it would be, though -- hell, he hadn't even been assigned to the Mountain. He'd been reassigned to flying combat missions in fucking Iraq, for an unspecified amount of time, as part of the Pentagon's ongoing stop-gap measures.

He'd forgotten how hard it was to make new friends, how bad he was at opening up. He'd gritted his teeth and played nice and kept everything light and on the surface, while trying to forget how it felt to fly something that responded to his very thoughts, what it felt like to step through the event horizon and onto another planet, how well he'd fit with Rodney and Teyla and Ronon.

When he couldn't forget, he thought about writing, maybe sending an email, but he'd never been good at that kind of thing, so...he didn't. Mitchell sent him updates for a year or so, but then his chopper was shot down outside Mosul, and by the time he was up for reading of any kind, he'd spent four months in an Army hospital in Germany, and then been discharged. Once he was no longer in the Air Force, his emails to Mitchell bounced back, and so he hadn't heard anything about Atlantis until the news broke about declassification. He'd wondered how long it would take Rodney to publish, and how long after that he'd be awarded his much-deserved and often talked about Nobel.

He didn't try to get in touch though; he figured he'd already missed his chance.

And now they're here, standing in the middle of the road, with people honking and shouting at them, and Rodney is touching him, gripping his shoulder and brushing shaking fingers over his cheek, rasping against the stubble there, and it feels like coming home. Rodney's babbling, words tumbling out in a hurried rush that matches John's memories so perfectly it takes his breath away.

"I'm sorry, I don't mean to be creepy and weird, it's just, you're alive, you're alive, and -- God, look at you."

John can feel the weight of his regard, sees the way Rodney is drinking him in, and he knows -- this is it, this is the chance they never let themselves take, the chance they were too chicken shit to take, and so he leans in, keeping his gaze on Rodney's as he says, "I'm alive, and I'm sorry if I'm reading this all wrong, but --" He kisses Rodney then, soft and chaste and sweet, and when he pulls away he whispers, "You're alive."

Rodney slides his hand from John's shoulder to his neck and wraps his fingers into John's hair, tugging a bit as he says, "We're alive, John." And then he's kissing John, hard and deep and perfect, and all John can do is hold on, and hope that Rodney hears everything he's not saying....
busaikko: animation of Rodney saying Yay (SGA yay)

[personal profile] busaikko 2008-04-19 09:43 pm (UTC)(link)
* le happy sigh *

I love having my heart broken, and you did it three times! First with most days the closest he gets to flying is the bike ride (poor John!), then with He'd been reassigned to flying combat missions in fucking Iraq (yikes! you shot John down! wait 'til Rodney finds out about *that*!), but absolutely most of all with they hadn't really said goodbye because John had thought he was going back. That's such a heart-wrenching detail right there, how can I not love that? (eep, now I'm picturing him in the hospital, finding out he's being discharged, and his very first thought being, but I thought if I was *good* I'd get sent back... *busaikko reaches for the tissues*)

Also? I love that John refers to people 'cussing'. That's a great voice detail for him. (and really kind of cute *g*)

Thank you for writing this!
busaikko: Something Wicked This Way Comes (Default)

[personal profile] busaikko 2008-04-26 11:04 pm (UTC)(link)
Heh. I know who you are now! Thank you, [livejournal.com profile] gblvr! You do heart-break so well ♥ ♥ ♥
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[identity profile] gblvr.livejournal.com 2008-04-27 02:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Sorry -- I didn't mean to break you! Does it help to know there was a happier version of this that I scrapped early on?

And you're welcome!
busaikko: Something Wicked This Way Comes (things fall apart)

[personal profile] busaikko 2008-04-27 09:06 pm (UTC)(link)
Heh--busaikko loves being broken, worry not! Seriously, I very much enjoy pain and angst. (I am of course curious now as to the happier version.... I wrote the original story, just FYI, purposefully to be more upbeat than, ah, my usual stuff, so mine was originally more angsty! So it feels natural and right to have come full circle *g*)
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[identity profile] gblvr.livejournal.com 2008-04-27 11:12 pm (UTC)(link)
See...I'm playing with the idea of writing the longer (yet still angsty) version of what happened to John, but it can't happen for a while (McShep Match and Big Bang have to be written first), so I hadn't even thought about asking if you'd give your blessing.

If you don't mind, I might post the happier version, if I can find some time to fix what was wrong with it.

And yeah, I like sad stories, and seem to be on a mission to break people with mine.
Edited 2008-04-27 23:13 (UTC)

[identity profile] bluflamingo.livejournal.com 2008-04-19 11:20 pm (UTC)(link)
I really love this whole thing, but I think the best part is that John has a job onnected to flying but doesn't actually fly. It's an incredibly effective detail, being so close to what he wants and not having it, but trying to make the best and... yeah, I'm rambling, sorry.
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[identity profile] gblvr.livejournal.com 2008-04-27 02:18 pm (UTC)(link)
Rambling is perfectly fine!

And yeah, I liked that detail too... Thanks for commenting!
celli: a woman and a man holding hands, captioned "i treasure" (Sheppard)

[personal profile] celli 2008-04-20 04:40 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, boys. *hearts*
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[identity profile] gblvr.livejournal.com 2008-04-27 02:18 pm (UTC)(link)
Hee! Thanks....

[identity profile] gaffsie.livejournal.com 2008-04-20 10:10 am (UTC)(link)
They grounded John, those bastards, and he didn't even get to say goodbye to the people he cared about. It's tragic to contemplate, especially since life has so obviously gone on for him, albeit in an unwanted direction. That, and the fact that he's trying to make the best of the situation is what kills me. It gives everything such a real and mundane feel.
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[identity profile] gblvr.livejournal.com 2008-04-27 02:21 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks -- I wanted to show that John was getting on with his life, which I guess I did.

[identity profile] cupidsbow.livejournal.com 2008-04-20 01:11 pm (UTC)(link)
Mmmmm. That's a sweet, lovely reversal.
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[identity profile] gblvr.livejournal.com 2008-04-27 02:21 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you!
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[identity profile] gblvr.livejournal.com 2008-04-27 02:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks!

[identity profile] emeraldsword.livejournal.com 2008-04-20 07:54 pm (UTC)(link)
oh, this was really good - nice to see John's side of it all and lots of good little details :-)
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[identity profile] gblvr.livejournal.com 2008-04-27 02:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you....
ext_2160: SGA John & Rodney (McShep kiss b&w)

[identity profile] winter-elf.livejournal.com 2008-04-21 04:13 am (UTC)(link)
Oh John - but yay for finally literaly running into Rodney and not letting go.
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[identity profile] gblvr.livejournal.com 2008-04-27 02:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Thanks!
paranoidangel: PA (Default)

[personal profile] paranoidangel 2008-04-22 06:57 am (UTC)(link)
It's really good to see John's side of this, especially what happened to him when he left Atlantis and what he does now. It all makes perfect sense.
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[identity profile] gblvr.livejournal.com 2008-04-27 02:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you!

[identity profile] krabapple.livejournal.com 2008-04-26 02:33 am (UTC)(link)
Awesome and lovely!
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[identity profile] gblvr.livejournal.com 2008-04-27 02:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you!

[identity profile] lolaraincoat.livejournal.com 2008-04-27 04:22 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes, that is exactly what is going to happen!

*nods nods nods*

Lovely story! Thank you!
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[identity profile] gblvr.livejournal.com 2008-04-27 04:54 pm (UTC)(link)
No, thank you!