Sai has always known himself to be selfish, and though he wants the Hand of God for himself, he is surprised to realize that dreams can change even when you're dead, and now he wants Hikaru to want things for himself.

This is a truly incredible sentence, and it shows all the best and worst of Sai and of his relationship with Hikaru (as, in fact, does the rest of your story). It's a little heartbreaking to read this story and to know that this distance between them can only grow and never lessen, but it's very beautiful, as well. Thank you for writing this.